Stubborn!

After have a great gathering with my jimui and escape from my part time gym.. come back time, my dad was telling something to my sisters. I know he taught my sisters about company politics and at first I not willing to join so just ignore until I heard my dad keep saying my uncle is useless I feel angry. I cannot accept my dad why keep saying people useless and that is his own brother. He not helping or guiding him and keep saying him useless. So I voice up and have little argument in attitude matter.
I told my dad we human always did wrong is only pointing or saw people mistake but not ownself. So I ask my dad did he know keep saying people useless is a wrong? He not feeling wrong and even praising ownself he is correct. WTF!!! He super confident and say he had nothing need to be change. I feeling worst and trying want to help but his thinking too "close" but keep telling u he is quite open to receive people comment. He asking me for help how to communicate or any method I suggested him to buy a books to gain more but he said no need is useless because he feel no matter what book is selling outside is also from human thinking. So he feel his own thinking is perfect so blocked about books too! This moment I feeling speechless and think back why previously he keep asking us to read more books instead himself is not doing his own part or parents character showed to his children. This is what I can see the stubbornness and typical asian man thinking! I cannot accept so I quit the conversation and have a good bath before sleep. Night!

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A day to remember! Quite funny moment and unpredictable day as well too.. I was thought all will full of preparation and surprise by him with officially announce to everybody but is not.. he say a date and is this date that we officially! So funny and feeling good after say out officially but until today I feel we like have a wall blocking us.. we act not like couple at all when with everybody.. we not holding hand in public just only when we together! Today he hold my hand to cross road and I found weird.. dunno why! Mayb we use to be like this for so long? Or he not brave enough? Or im the one not brave enough? Feeling so wrong.. if bcoz me I just feel dun wan let all AEON know.. but seems we officially I feel ok.. but action is like not ok.. so do him! I found.. he quite self mayb he use to be alone for so many years and suddenly got an outsider come into his life.. I know he need time but bcoz of some times his action makes me not confident at all.. example: today we coming back from thailand and from morning til noon I not yet have a proper meal so I told him and I know he full.. so we decided to go icon city at first but suddenly he drive another way said want to go autocity.. he like not really want to go icon city but at the end autocity also din go bcoz he offer me to buy mcd nugget which can eat on the spot.. on that moment, I know he not willing to accompany to eat and want send me back home so he can go back have a nap because tired.. feeling bit sad and disappointed! At last, I just ate the crackers with some milk as my whole day meal even dinner also din take d! Now feeling tired after play few hours monopoly with my sisters.. night!
P/s: by the way, this 2days 1night at Dannok quite fun and sweet moment can be look back :)

纠结！

感觉我们好像太自然了until不需要任何的正式？我不喜欢我们做什么事都偷偷的！可能之前他习惯了可是也不可以这样嘛~我要有我们的anniversary虽然之前有定下来一个日期可是感觉不太正式。如果还是这样拖着，我应该会放慢再看这段感情了。
今天和小玲出去了一阵天感觉很好我们去喝茶，彩色，还有吃晚餐！晚餐后送她回家时，她和我share了她最近和一位男聊得还不错。是碗欣介绍的，约过一起出来我本人也觉得他不错。人虽然肥肥的可是整体上很整齐的男人也很steady礼貌的人。那次见面后，他和小玲有聊天而且也聊了许多的！今天这位男的竟然很大胆的向小玲说他会勇敢的追求她因为他问了小玲他有没有机会？小玲没有拒绝却还说给他机会就是也给自己机会~太完美了！男的就骨气勇气说了"那么我会敢敢的追求你咯"实在太帅了~这时候我也替小玲感到兴奋和开心。希望这次是ok的！也希望自己也是~ ><