End Xmas

This year quite special for me which celebrate with him together. I bought him a watch which using delivery. At first makes me so worry about it but when the stock arrived and its packed in good. Makes me feel not perfect is this is not my first choice due its out of stock! Anyway, on that night before heading for countdown we exchange in car and I super duper nervous he wont like it.. but he love it and he gave me a box with wrapping in nice gift wrapper. I opened up and super surprise that cant believe he present me a watch too. There is so gham timing my current watch suddenly stop (I guess due of battery dead) which is a gift from my ex.. oh ya, just now I saw his post up the watch which is same brand of what I had present to him.. fuck! Dont know he will misunderstand or not? Although he dont have his account but he quite smart and might accidentally saw it! Arrghhhh.. whatever! I believe he is on my side.. and bcoz of this makes me want to buy the most suitable watch for him again! I dont care..
Opps! Im not mad just feel sienz.. and glad got someone present him a gift I guess his sis.. bcoz his bday on coming Thursday (31st Dec).. wish him really can let go, be more strong and mature enough! Sincerely wish him :)
Besides, im enjoyed today outing with him.. I guess im totally on him d! Many questions on my head.. am I too fast? Am I this and that? Holy.. I just feeling safe and warm when with him..

Shocked Surprise!

After work whole day and have a good hug with him, come back time is quite late about 11.30pm and my dad scold me again saying not listening to him! Haiz.. sometimes really feel breathless but im understand what he worries about.. just sometimes im not purposely want to be late but use to it and trying back home after work without talking much with Michael and Carrie!
Anyway, ignoring and open my room door I saw a bouquet rose on my bed. The first feeling I know is from him (ex) and open the card it is.. What my expression? Is feeling normal and wasted.. why some people really will do things on wrong timing? Why everything is over only trying to satisfy or giving you previous that not giving? Anyway, no text for "thank you" and just put aside or give my mum to put on vase as deco. Really hope he is good and stay happy as he wishing to me!
P/s: pls dont continue countdown for our anniversary because the date on the card is wishing our date of anniversary! #imsorry

Condition or Unconditionally

This arguement is started since yesterday night and I feel this topic makes me feel something and understand something too. A simple question like "What is Love?" is started makes me question myself and what I had answered is Love is a bonding and connection between one to others and it's can be applies on many perception nor relationship. I also found out he is condition person after I told him about this discussion and he quite expecting lots but wont let you know or tell you what he had expecting. So for this kind person because of they not easily to express out just waiting for the connection that what he had expecting will quite wasting time or letting the precious time away because he couldn't reach what he had expected!
So am I for sometimes, my head keep on thinking that why I need to think so much? By the way, im really open for everyone and know how to grab a chance. This time I don't really expecting much but still have on him dunno why.. but he makes me feel he like use to it and keep saying he waiting me when ready.. urghhh! How to say ready leh? I'm already single and mentioning open for everyone is mean ready I guess but I feel he is the one not yet ready so let's see the time goes! No rush while scanning on him because im on crush with him only by now.. ><