Im dead.. totally dead!!! I really should make a decision for myself.. After thinking for sooooo damn long im decided to let him go meanwhile I should concentrate on my side.. if he really waiting for you, he will catch up to you not im standing there waiting him to come right? After KL, mayb I will did that and its fair enough for current side too! Shit.. im like a bitch!!! God, pls tell me why and how? Only thing I can do is let the time shows everything and I give myself timeline which is after Taiwan answer will be come out automatically! I feel that too.. really fuck up of me!!! How I wish my mind suddenly lost and everything starts from zero.. how good was that?! Im not sure about that.. ah hah~
I feel myself really deep into it but I know I should not and its not fair for him! Today he was sick, I knew that but dunno why in sudden I just walk off the room because im feel like if stay more im dead more.. looking his pale face is makes me feel worry and wanna take care of him! When I walk off he phone me and nvr ask me come back too.. I pissed off in sudden and after 3 rounds of lift I only get in!!! After that, he asking me why I leave? I feel omg.. what am I doing? Im regret~~~ but at last not going back too bcoz its almost time for my workout! Haiz.. Haiz.. Haiz.. T.T
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