LONG TIME NO SEE, ANGIE

 After so long, I read back most of my blogs makes me feel a different stage of myself. It's started on my own accidentally pressed the link on my own Instagram and i found out wow it's been a long time never thrown my emotion on here. So, I'm decided to start blog again. 

My last blogging was 2017 and yeah it's about mixed feelings until now 2022 even Covid-19 pandemic also happens 2 years past. Most things happen and change lots but my relationship with him is still the same. We've been together for 6years plus and we've been through together lots but yeah very less arguments not sure is a good thing or not. We bought a house together last year. It's a small unit around 650sqft only but its enough for us to living together. I love the house although small it's cozy enough you may go to my Instagram story highlight "亿琪宅在家" to check it out. For so long, Instagram become my blog style by showing pic and some lil words or quotes to express myself on that day. No more fancy or long story to be told as here. 

This pandemic makes me realize a thing that just does what you can be done, there is always unpredictable happening in life. I'm thanking God for my speedy recovery during a positive moment with my beloved gang. Ohya, just an update in my gang Grace is the one married, next come to Chloe, Varyne and last year are Linda.. Quite many people are shocked that I'm the last one to get attached or marry. Yeah! Me myself too. For myself, everything is at the right time with the right people and until today I guess I found the right one but still unsure feeling on myself don't know why because there are still many things we need to explore and I always understand life or human unable to explore finish until the end of your life so at least I'm following the flow now. This year we decided to get married after discussing without any action the last 2 years makes me feel a little couldn't stand what we going to do next or stable down ourselves to move forward. So, hope everything was fine and smooth although upfront we couldn't do many things due to my grandpa passing away last year in March 2021. It's sad but we still, need to move forward on what are we supposed to do. Most of the traditional way we unable to make it so we going to have Registration Wedding Party and yeah will be a super new concept of the wedding. So far never seen other people do this way but I guess will be more relaxed and chill. I still remember the moment I told my mum about this she is kinda excited and looking forward on that and you know.. as a traditional mum she used to be doing all the traditional way on her marriage so she is to urge on many things until the final confirmation from my grandma said not to do all the traditional way she only can calm down a bit. Actually, I told her not to be so panic and I understand on her excitement but I don't want her to be a busy person on my wedding day so trying to explain to her that wants her to be chill and wear a beautiful dress enjoy the moment of the wedding... huh~ luckily she understands.

Wow! I'm feeling written too much but it's just an update and told myself I'm kinda ready to step forward to the next life. It's funny that I'm blogging in the office because today is super boring and nothing much can do. It's a chill day for me and looking forward to tonight meeting up with my girl for dinner and having some drink after that. 

Mixed feeling!

Today is a night im crying lot due my offer got super low and still couldn't find a good job. Everyone always update with my current job and for them im the one always who love to change job. Seriously, am i? If not because of Jing Si im still jobless for almost 7 months. Im glad and i still looking for better job due cultural shock. Its ok and comfort to staying there but im looking for someone can assist me and guided to better of me. Ok, come back to original version today. Last week i went for interview which is my fav working in travel agent. I did for myself to low down my expectations salary from 3.8k to 3k only due i understand travel line salary is kinda low. Waiting two days finally got the mail from the boss. She only offer me rm2k as executive which is my past 4 years ago salary. Im experience and not a fresh grad.... Why? I really dont get it! Am i really bad til like this? I am so so down and finally cry out. So tiring and exhausted keep looking for job.
Just now i felt sad in sudden dunno why because of his wording makes me think of previous relationship. Its because of work and reducing an accompany. I told him my buddy wedding on wednesday at alor setar and he told me see first how. Then i told him that nonit see first coz im sure will go because is my buddy and yeah im expecting he will join me but he is not when i ask him are u really wont come that day? He said he might got work to do. Then i asked i will go til alor setar wor.. He said how about your friend? This sentence makes me started feel worry. Will everything re-act past 7 years again? Its because im time to wasting his (ex) time on work hard, yeah which is from beginning til better then he is belong to someone else now. Its doesn't matter anymore but why im worry also might be little dot told me that i had wasting 7years to teaching a boy become a good man and husband now am i going to teach new boy again? Which is the same situation from beginning work hard and of course im supporting but this time i will waiting for how long? Seriously, im ready for marriage but i know its not the time yet due he is not satisfied current result. But izit when touch on marriage must do everything in a line first? Im so complicated due im dont have high pay salary.. Commitment stucked.. Relationship makes me feel insecure.. Should i go oversea as a bet for my life? Will he feel sad when im apart? I guess im dead! I really cant do it.. I worry he will sad although he is supporting me! Kill me pls.. what's an emo night even im still crying while typing!

Good night!

Moody December 2016

I know I shouldn't be so negative because I know every bad moment that you had you'll got something good on coming. Just can't help it now due I'm feeling so sad towards those innocent colleagues been threatened bad by cruel company. My current company is the worst company that I never met before. In a month they can terminate staffs with their own prefer and due it is been backstabbing by backstabber. The popularity of this company was the character is 8 per 10 due mostly is listening person. Love to listen people say without any proof and believe it too.
Today there are 2 colleagues told me about their feeling and she cried in front of me. We never say much each other but she willing told me her situation which is company not let her to claim OT thus she is the only one do everything on the dept. (sorry I can't say which dept of that)
This company won't appreciate what u done for them and mostly they kicked out was talented person which i feel so stupid they are keeping all the old and non creative person in this company. I am no idea what am I writing here just want to shout-out and after that get back my work. I really don't know how long am I still going to work here because environment really can't help it! I feel unhappy and heavy feeling everyday. Even my housemate or friends keep asking me am I no sleep at night? I was keep dreaming recently and feel so heavy when woke up. My eyes getting yellowish as my colleague told me. I don't know why..
The another things, he also facing difficulty from his company but I feel he can do it and his company not worst like mine yet so I feel he can face it. Sometimes yeah feeling want tell him more but I feel himself stress too so i try to give some positive strength for him better than negative..
Hope our December month will past peacefully and happy. No worries i will treat it as challenge how to play around to this cruel company! Fighting Angie 💪

Another stage of my life!

Recently I got another challenge towards on myself due on my job, my business and all surrounding me. Yeah! I started my new business since May 2016 and is still baby so need put lots effort on this. My business is a travel business which targeted backpackers, and who loves holiday in budget way.

I guess this is the first holiday planner in Penang who run the business with low cost but with super localize itinerary including personal tour guide and driver! I run this business with him Mr Egg who really support me and put lots effort in this. We really look forwards on this and hope everything is run smoothly.

Another things that happened on me is the place i worked. On September, they decided to transfer me to another dept and the reason is i'm failed in judgement and i'm not suitable in motorcycle line. This is what my leader who i'm respected the most and feel he will bring you up nor give u such crazy reason. I know i should be positive but all the reason is really ridiculous even though i told my friend around and even my younger sister they felt is unfair because sales is not bad and i'm able to reactivate back 70% of inactive merchant back. Honestly speaking, i couldn't accept this reason and i can't give myself a good reason that im bad than the new hire people which had no experience in this line and the grade is higher than me. She just enter this company within 3mths and she is the first marketing had confirmed in 2mths with do not much yet! Feeling so unbalance and why not transfer her out and is me? 

However, i'm accept the fate and try to accept the new transfer which will transferred to PFCC (Personal Loan and Credit Card) which totally not my interest but no harm to give myself a try so i'm accepted since my salary is remain the same as been told by my leader. The only thing makes me fed up and feeling like letting people play a fool on yourself is really a bad bad feeling. They are the one want to do transfer but told me there is no vacancy yet and until yesterday told me have a vacancy but not the original branch that im here now is another branch. I had agreed that because there is no 3rd choice.

After agreed, the new leader told me that she found my current salary had allowance which is quite big amount and she said when change to her dept there is no allowance. My allowance is RM500 and can you imagine that if you get transfer the RM500 that you always had suddenly gone just like that! It's make me super fed up and this matter makes me cry twice in front of diff leader. So shameful and i really not strong enough. After 1 day consideration, i'm decided to take the offer meanwhile finding another job which able to support my commitment and meanwhile can run my own business until have inquiry.

I feel myself exhausted but worth because all i did is for myself and future too. Of course he too, we really makes ourselves into it and schedule so pack everyday. Hope we stand still and be happy to facing everything.

Start from next week i need to adjust myself lunch without him because he got better offer and the last day for him is this coming Friday. So fast until today Wilber said about farewell i only realize that. I know is still mainland but another feeling comes is our meeting will become lesser and i can see his passionate on his new job which is good. Happy for him that finally he found his always wanted job.

Just feel long time no blogging so just type out what i want to say and now want to continue find my new job! Thanks and goodbye :)

Use to it!

I found lately im so use to it to lay on him and so depending on himself.. I will missing him even after we met few mins ago.. OMG! Am I ok? I think im ready be with him in my life but one thing that I always not sure is do he ready too? Actually testing him few times from my questions and I found he is not really yet.. feeling super nervous and dont know what to do.. these make me feel so insecure and makes me want to reducing my thought more into it.. but feeling always hardest to control so I just be myself! Maybe he found is too early or how.. but actually I am ready and im willing to commit anything! This is very first time my feeling super firm on this..
Anyway, I love when leaning, cuddling with him so much! Hope everything is smooth and hoping our life getting better too on what we working hard now! :)

Stubborn!

After have a great gathering with my jimui and escape from my part time gym.. come back time, my dad was telling something to my sisters. I know he taught my sisters about company politics and at first I not willing to join so just ignore until I heard my dad keep saying my uncle is useless I feel angry. I cannot accept my dad why keep saying people useless and that is his own brother. He not helping or guiding him and keep saying him useless. So I voice up and have little argument in attitude matter.
I told my dad we human always did wrong is only pointing or saw people mistake but not ownself. So I ask my dad did he know keep saying people useless is a wrong? He not feeling wrong and even praising ownself he is correct. WTF!!! He super confident and say he had nothing need to be change. I feeling worst and trying want to help but his thinking too "close" but keep telling u he is quite open to receive people comment. He asking me for help how to communicate or any method I suggested him to buy a books to gain more but he said no need is useless because he feel no matter what book is selling outside is also from human thinking. So he feel his own thinking is perfect so blocked about books too! This moment I feeling speechless and think back why previously he keep asking us to read more books instead himself is not doing his own part or parents character showed to his children. This is what I can see the stubbornness and typical asian man thinking! I cannot accept so I quit the conversation and have a good bath before sleep. Night!

110116

A day to remember! Quite funny moment and unpredictable day as well too.. I was thought all will full of preparation and surprise by him with officially announce to everybody but is not.. he say a date and is this date that we officially! So funny and feeling good after say out officially but until today I feel we like have a wall blocking us.. we act not like couple at all when with everybody.. we not holding hand in public just only when we together! Today he hold my hand to cross road and I found weird.. dunno why! Mayb we use to be like this for so long? Or he not brave enough? Or im the one not brave enough? Feeling so wrong.. if bcoz me I just feel dun wan let all AEON know.. but seems we officially I feel ok.. but action is like not ok.. so do him! I found.. he quite self mayb he use to be alone for so many years and suddenly got an outsider come into his life.. I know he need time but bcoz of some times his action makes me not confident at all.. example: today we coming back from thailand and from morning til noon I not yet have a proper meal so I told him and I know he full.. so we decided to go icon city at first but suddenly he drive another way said want to go autocity.. he like not really want to go icon city but at the end autocity also din go bcoz he offer me to buy mcd nugget which can eat on the spot.. on that moment, I know he not willing to accompany to eat and want send me back home so he can go back have a nap because tired.. feeling bit sad and disappointed! At last, I just ate the crackers with some milk as my whole day meal even dinner also din take d! Now feeling tired after play few hours monopoly with my sisters.. night!
P/s: by the way, this 2days 1night at Dannok quite fun and sweet moment can be look back :)

纠结！

感觉我们好像太自然了until不需要任何的正式？我不喜欢我们做什么事都偷偷的！可能之前他习惯了可是也不可以这样嘛~我要有我们的anniversary虽然之前有定下来一个日期可是感觉不太正式。如果还是这样拖着，我应该会放慢再看这段感情了。
今天和小玲出去了一阵天感觉很好我们去喝茶，彩色，还有吃晚餐！晚餐后送她回家时，她和我share了她最近和一位男聊得还不错。是碗欣介绍的，约过一起出来我本人也觉得他不错。人虽然肥肥的可是整体上很整齐的男人也很steady礼貌的人。那次见面后，他和小玲有聊天而且也聊了许多的！今天这位男的竟然很大胆的向小玲说他会勇敢的追求她因为他问了小玲他有没有机会？小玲没有拒绝却还说给他机会就是也给自己机会~太完美了！男的就骨气勇气说了"那么我会敢敢的追求你咯"实在太帅了~这时候我也替小玲感到兴奋和开心。希望这次是ok的！也希望自己也是~ ><

End Xmas

This year quite special for me which celebrate with him together. I bought him a watch which using delivery. At first makes me so worry about it but when the stock arrived and its packed in good. Makes me feel not perfect is this is not my first choice due its out of stock! Anyway, on that night before heading for countdown we exchange in car and I super duper nervous he wont like it.. but he love it and he gave me a box with wrapping in nice gift wrapper. I opened up and super surprise that cant believe he present me a watch too. There is so gham timing my current watch suddenly stop (I guess due of battery dead) which is a gift from my ex.. oh ya, just now I saw his post up the watch which is same brand of what I had present to him.. fuck! Dont know he will misunderstand or not? Although he dont have his account but he quite smart and might accidentally saw it! Arrghhhh.. whatever! I believe he is on my side.. and bcoz of this makes me want to buy the most suitable watch for him again! I dont care..
Opps! Im not mad just feel sienz.. and glad got someone present him a gift I guess his sis.. bcoz his bday on coming Thursday (31st Dec).. wish him really can let go, be more strong and mature enough! Sincerely wish him :)
Besides, im enjoyed today outing with him.. I guess im totally on him d! Many questions on my head.. am I too fast? Am I this and that? Holy.. I just feeling safe and warm when with him..

Shocked Surprise!

After work whole day and have a good hug with him, come back time is quite late about 11.30pm and my dad scold me again saying not listening to him! Haiz.. sometimes really feel breathless but im understand what he worries about.. just sometimes im not purposely want to be late but use to it and trying back home after work without talking much with Michael and Carrie!
Anyway, ignoring and open my room door I saw a bouquet rose on my bed. The first feeling I know is from him (ex) and open the card it is.. What my expression? Is feeling normal and wasted.. why some people really will do things on wrong timing? Why everything is over only trying to satisfy or giving you previous that not giving? Anyway, no text for "thank you" and just put aside or give my mum to put on vase as deco. Really hope he is good and stay happy as he wishing to me!
P/s: pls dont continue countdown for our anniversary because the date on the card is wishing our date of anniversary! #imsorry

Condition or Unconditionally

This arguement is started since yesterday night and I feel this topic makes me feel something and understand something too. A simple question like "What is Love?" is started makes me question myself and what I had answered is Love is a bonding and connection between one to others and it's can be applies on many perception nor relationship. I also found out he is condition person after I told him about this discussion and he quite expecting lots but wont let you know or tell you what he had expecting. So for this kind person because of they not easily to express out just waiting for the connection that what he had expecting will quite wasting time or letting the precious time away because he couldn't reach what he had expected!
So am I for sometimes, my head keep on thinking that why I need to think so much? By the way, im really open for everyone and know how to grab a chance. This time I don't really expecting much but still have on him dunno why.. but he makes me feel he like use to it and keep saying he waiting me when ready.. urghhh! How to say ready leh? I'm already single and mentioning open for everyone is mean ready I guess but I feel he is the one not yet ready so let's see the time goes! No rush while scanning on him because im on crush with him only by now.. ><

加重！

分了手，可是他却不死心还一直烦我的身边的朋友让我很懊恼！我只是要让他自己领悟我们的问题可是他却没有而是不想输一只想办法要我回来~想买东西给我还有做一些有没有的东西。朋友们都开始觉得反感了也真的觉得他有问题，他真的失去理智当他感觉到我有人追求。他怕我接受了他，他就没有机会了可是现在他做了这些会让他连机会都失去了！可是我又不想这样，真的伤脑筋。今天是gep和他们的merchants聚会让后从昨晚他第一次很认真的告诉我要睡觉了很累一点都不想说了然后就让他去睡觉吧可是到今天早上到了现在都不跟我说话也不看我一眼！真是的~所以我也不要说那么多了就出去，去找3个merchants然后买了香蕉糕坐在车里一边吃一边等时间上班！刚刚他whatsapp我说他今晚不来了因为有dinner聚会和他的老板我就回复好吧就没了。他也不问回我也没多问了！心情不舒服~不懂为什么可能又是那个在意的心情吧！讨人厌 :/

071115 Goodbye my love!

Step in 4th days after breaking up and feeling normal now because like always did just in your heart that you always put him inside slowly taking out day by day! Yea, the date mentioned on my title is the day we broke up and im crying for 2days. Feeling bad but im struggle for almost 3 years problem finally made up and why crying is because 8yrs relationship gone just due on my feeling. I'm open my laptop look back all my memories with him and I found out its getting lesser year by year until for so long the end memory is ending on our last week holiday at Taiwan. I saw the pics that we taken is not like our 1years or previous years anymore. I admitted that I couldn't wait because im waiting for 8yrs and its still the same. Im the one like surprise, romantic and giving hints but in this relationship its make me open my hints until I need to straightforward with him what I want what I need its still the same. I celebrating birthday at Taiwan, sound nice but there is no celebration and lil surprise for me. No complaint just feel our direction is different and just we feel comfort due the period of relationship until we lazy to spoke out!
In my heart, he is still a good man just he had not aware that he already use to it without giving any action and thought work harder to give me better future. He is a kind man, he giving his everything to me as long I am requested but he dont know how to express his love on action! Mayb you cant get me but I know him well and made this decision is the super hard in my life but I made it. Really hope he can keep on his life and treat better to the next one because I know he will be a good husband. No fate be together but I wish we still can be friend oh no is very best friend so called soul mate. Hope so because until now we no finding each other and I am wondering what he is doing? Did he eat on time? Did he feel alright and concentrate back on his work? Until today I saw him "like" on one of my fb post! I shocked and smile coz I can feel he is alright.
So, after all this with all weirdo healing time like crying while eating, crying while laughing and many more I will enjoy my single life although in my heart there got someone treat me so well and we got complicated relationship there but I feel that I should take it slow and see his action! I want see the sincerity, caring, comfortable, and the ready of him. Of course I will give others chance if got but im willing to hear the proposal with officially. God bless :)

不解！

有时候我觉得是不是我一厢情愿呢？感觉到我给了他很多次机会可是他好像不怎么样感到我自己觉得很渴望什么什么的。开始不明白他到底要怎么样，还是依然爱我还是累了不爱了！刚刚在bnb时候，当他一个人做的时候我就去纠正他可是他竟然很不自然的看别的地方而且一直找Carrie来教他！那个动作让我觉得很伤心也很难过...是他故意的还是真的不想和我面对面可是我去带他又要我带真的让我伤脑筋。他做了这个反应时候，我的心真的不自在也很想哭可是那时我还教其他人所以就忍住了当作没事！终止它让我不知该如何是好，我不懂该不该对他一样好还是他不喜欢我对他这样了开始厌倦我这个做不到决定的人还要对别人拉拉扯扯！我就是在等时机嘛~算了吧，如果对我是还有心的话我自然会看到他的急急而不是我一直找他烦他才看到他对我的反应！竟然他让我觉得他不想了也不想让我去他的家了就没关系了就怪我自己吧！真的时间可以证明一切也可以证明其实别人不是那么的喜欢你只是自己不小心掉了湖里还找不到呼吸的地方。也许这两个人都不属于我的因为他们真的一点不怎么样 :(

Goodbye Taiwan!

It's 3.34am midnight and im still awake, couldn't sleep well because the seat makes my neck so pain! So I had ordered peanut RM5 to bite while listening my music and singing softly.. on half way the captain announced to buckle up the seat belt due the weather not stable so everyone buckle up including me of course. Looking out the window its lighting everywhere and the flight is floating bit but still ok! I'm seat on 42G which is center seat.. both of my sides sleeping so peacefully makes me so jealous because my eyes tiring actually but my neck cannot stand of it. Later plan to sleep while at KLIA2 since need to hang around at there for 3hours only take flight back to Penang which will reach at 8.20am according to flight itenarary.
His birthday finally ends happily with colleagues treated him Nando's as birthday lunch. Seems he like Nando's so much and he quite happy with the simple celebration. Look on his pic, he like slim lot but dunno he will wondering im not replying him back coz no wifi d.. :(
This 10days 9nights trip at Taiwan I really can feel my bf treat me so well which no changes at all and the one make changes is me! I feel so sorry to him! Fuck!!! While with him im keep on thinking another guy but that guy seems started focusing on his career and throw me aside d.. or else I got find him, he only reply me means he wont automatically find me! I can understand why he wont find me but in another way he makes me feel he dont miss me and feel that I can settle myself without any worries! This trip I bought super lots things for him and want buy more but like too much so control myself! One of it is my own handmade for him althought he wont use now but he will use it one day and really hope he will like it!
Haiz.. I really want to see whats the next.. izit im the one care more or same? Listening "寂寞的季节- 陶喆" now feeling empty and quiet..
Can't wait fast fast reach Penang and get on my lovely bed to sleep til the max! :)

Some words..

Just want to say thank you to him for working so hard to get the budget for my birthday trip at Taiwan. Although just a lil cake without any happening celebration but I know he got my heart just sometimes dont know how to show out.. on the other way I feel that he already use to it and im also be responsible on this because I let this happen! I really had no idea how I want to tell him that we really cannot make up.. honestly, whenever he want to xxx with me im rejected and on my side is not watery at all! Fuck!!! So this is sure on my mistake d.. im had no feeling with him anymore but still love him like my family. I really hope that can celebrate with him a sweet birthday I mean his birthday which one end of December 31st only decide to telling him we should breakup but can I wait? Can he wait? Im in love with another guy but this guy patient I had no idea with it so I just go on with my own feeling and im really hope he can understand why im like that? This is super long relationship and I really need to think of it because not only both of us.. both of our family and many more issues! I scare he hurt and I scare myself also cannot take it.. I dunno anything thats why until today I cant make any decision! He was so mad on me because of my stupid mind and I was so upset of his rudeness to me! I know he want me think right but im the one understand myself more than him just the timing there.. mayb he thought I was dragging time but its not.. everything come suddenly and I need to react instantly..
Arrghhhh, I had no idea what am I saying d! I really hope he understand my situation and why im told him that not to wait if he feels im dragging his time is because he is lost patient that was I felt! And sincere from my heart if he ownself decide not to wait I cant say anything just treat as we had no fate at all.. even I had breakup with my current bf.. I miss him :/

祝我生日快乐！

今天去了十分和平溪玩了一整天而且下了一整天的雨所以就穿上了雨衣一整天！嘻嘻。到了晚上吃了晚餐就回到九份，全角累垮了... 可是半路要回去的时候经过两个蛋糕店我请不致敬就哇一声因为太美丽也很可爱。我们走过了他就问我要吗？因为多下就生日~我就说不要了因为感觉上他都不想买因为我说不用了他也没多问！真的气死我了...可是这次旅行是他全包所以觉得算了因为真的花了蛮多钱！可是另一个想法在我的脑海里就是怎么连一小块的蛋糕都没有吗？算了吧，应该要自足！So, 礼物收到的是他亲手做卡片给我而我却没怎么样可是的确他很用心！惨了啦，我怎么了！对了，昨晚收到"他"的whatsapp.. 很开心因为他弹吉他"生日快乐"给我听！很好听也听了很多篇~最好笑的事，他跟我说了很多很多的话也用广东话也刚好我全听懂！不错吧~今晚他也唱了生日歌给我听可是我要求的！嘻嘻...开心可是最后他好像不爽不知我还是谁。Anyway, 今年感觉到生日最不疯狂的一年了！现在一个人在看戏而他累垮了所以睡觉了... LOL！晚安 :)

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今天往九份去玩一玩可是交通工具非常麻烦也是要我一个人去安排因为其他不太懂这个方面！做了MRT也做了TAXI也到了在一个小时内。九份都是山路就像CAMERON HIGHLAND可是比较热闹也不太一样，最够力的事我们竟然住在很高的地方TAXI也带不到我们上去所以就拉着行李咯…累死了！到了酒店有点失望因为床有臭味尤其是枕头还有被单。我们住在地下室3楼所以当我要往上，楼梯太好了也不小心踢了我的脚子而且是母子！痛死我了，最让我有点炸到是他看到我敲到可是就站着那边问我怎么样？还好吧？妈的...我当然说没事咯！算了吧，他应该不懂我有多在意这些小事。可是我却感觉到他很想弥补要对我很好也疼我可是我却一直拒绝！不懂为什么就是拒绝拥抱拒绝一些对我们来说是正常的动作~我很想要告诉他可是又不懂怎么样。也很想要提早回去可是又不敢！快要疯了~ T.T

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I feel so bad because im treated him like normal until now I still thinking of him!!! Arrghhhh ><
Okla.. tomorrow journey long to go! Good night~

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A trip to Taiwan for 10days 9nights together with my bf and his friends! We sit Airasia flight from Penang to KL to Taiwan and its took us almost 10hours journey makes my neck sipek pain! When heading down to Taoyuan Airport time its been delayed for 10mins because traffic jammed and makes my ears popping dead pain! On flight we eat bo bo stuff, play some tic tac toe, listening music and sleeping.. Once we stepped on the Taiwan ground feeling good and get a taxi to our hotel.. quite cute thing is the driver seat is our opposite side and one of my friend open the left door but is driver door actually! Hahaha xD
We stayed Lotus Yuan Hotel and its cheap motel with quite nice bedroom! Check in hotel and find somewhere to eat which is 7eleven at nearby.. lots unique stuff especially the bento! We ate and get back hotel for deep rest almost 1am stuff.. before sleep switch on the tv and its super lots of channels! Yes, we sleep together but the feeling not right at all.. dunno why! We sleep side to side mayb because too tired but lots of complicated thinking of mine like no hug, no goodnight kiss anything! Zzz
Is ok.. the next day I woke up at 7am because too bright and after asked taxi driver which is our 3days taxi tour guide said that now is autumn so the night is dark at 7pm and bright is at 5am.. Deep! After woke up we took taxi to 高铁 heading to Taichung! Great view and super fast railway and clean and service so good.. once reach Taichung station we met the driver which is our taxi tour guide Mr.Ho he is nice uncle and bring us around before heading to our hotel. We went to Sun Lake Moon and the scenery is beautiful, trying the herbal eggs super yummylicious and the pear fruits so fresh! Uncle took for us pictures lot and he really volunteer be our photograph and teach us how to pose and that! In middle I feel over and dunno why too?! Haiz.. anyway, due to haze we couldn't see sunset which mentioned its will reflect the sunset to water and the water is full of golden yellow colour~ can u imagine that? While waiting Uncle Ho we trying draught beer which cost us NTD100 not bad and its taste like Kirin beer! After that, he bring us to Wenwu Temple and its located Sun Lake Moon highest mountain pray but the scenery still not clear but when see with real eyes is super amazing!
After that, uncle bring us have a traditional Taiwan kochabi 卤肉饭.. nice but quite small portion after that only heading to CingJing check in hotel.. I tell u what? I am super duper love this CingJing hotel.. love love love!!! So cold while drinking liquor super warm and heading up the moonlight was shine on your head that you sitting the garden.. soooo good! Now enjoying the night.. can't wait for tomorrow morning to walk out balcony and look outside beautiful scenery on rooftop :)